Judgement Day!

Week 29

Weight: 18st 4lb
Gain this week: 2lb
Total lost: 63.5lb

I got home from our camping trip yesterday tanned, grubby, knackered, and 2lb heavier. 2lb, that's fine. Better than fine. I essentially relaxed and ate what was available when I was hungry for a whole week. Oh yes, I may have only camped for 4 nights but I couldn't rev myself up to be bothered on Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday either. So it could have been much much worse. I'm actually seeing it as a very positive little gain because in the past I would easily have gained half a stone if I cut loose from The Plan. 2lb indicates to me that there were some internal checks and balances at work stopping me from going wild in the country.

I feel a need to address the issue of my relationship with food here. My desire to cut loose on holiday wasn't born from a need to eat more or eat badly in order to enjoy myself. It was out of a desire to not have to spend my break worrying about food, about finding a way to fit in with everyone else. I wanted to be able to stop on a visit somewhere for lunch and grab a sandwich from a shop to eat in the park. I confess to an icecream in the park one day, with everyone else. In other words I wanted, for just those few days, for food to be an absolute non issue, thought about or discussed only when strictly necessary. Isn't that how it is for normal (thin!) people?

I'm now 100% back on plan, happy to be eating healthily, looking forward to my bowl of strawberries and yoghurt later. And I'm also excessively delighted to have found a stockist of Warburtons All in One which is a white bread loaded with all the fibre and goodness of wholemeal. 2 slices from the medium 800g loaf is 1 Healthy Extra B plus 1 syn. You can only understand how ecstatic this has made me if you have spent over 6 months managing your toast and bread needs on 2 slices from a 400g loaf of wholemeal. Breadtastic!

My aim for this week is to lose all of the 3 1/2lbs I have gained over the last 2 weeks. Wish me luck!