Tuesday, 29 July 2008

Judgement Day!

Week 29

Weight: 18st 4lb
Gain this week: 2lb
Total lost: 63.5lb

I got home from our camping trip yesterday tanned, grubby, knackered, and 2lb heavier. 2lb, that's fine. Better than fine. I essentially relaxed and ate what was available when I was hungry for a whole week. Oh yes, I may have only camped for 4 nights but I couldn't rev myself up to be bothered on Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday either. So it could have been much much worse. I'm actually seeing it as a very positive little gain because in the past I would easily have gained half a stone if I cut loose from The Plan. 2lb indicates to me that there were some internal checks and balances at work stopping me from going wild in the country.

I feel a need to address the issue of my relationship with food here. My desire to cut loose on holiday wasn't born from a need to eat more or eat badly in order to enjoy myself. It was out of a desire to not have to spend my break worrying about food, about finding a way to fit in with everyone else. I wanted to be able to stop on a visit somewhere for lunch and grab a sandwich from a shop to eat in the park. I confess to an icecream in the park one day, with everyone else. In other words I wanted, for just those few days, for food to be an absolute non issue, thought about or discussed only when strictly necessary. Isn't that how it is for normal (thin!) people?

I'm now 100% back on plan, happy to be eating healthily, looking forward to my bowl of strawberries and yoghurt later. And I'm also excessively delighted to have found a stockist of Warburtons All in One which is a white bread loaded with all the fibre and goodness of wholemeal. 2 slices from the medium 800g loaf is 1 Healthy Extra B plus 1 syn. You can only understand how ecstatic this has made me if you have spent over 6 months managing your toast and bread needs on 2 slices from a 400g loaf of wholemeal. Breadtastic!

My aim for this week is to lose all of the 3 1/2lbs I have gained over the last 2 weeks. Wish me luck!

4 comments:

goodbyetoallfat said...

Glad to hear that you had some "internal checks and balances at work stopping me from going wild in the country" ...

... but now I've got that 80s pop song going through my head "go wild, go wild, go wild in the country .... snakes in the grass are absolutely free"

Do you know the one I'm on about?

Anyway -- best wishes with getting the few extra pounds back off and back down to 18 stone again.

ttfn
Sharon

Sara Seahorse said...

"It was out of a desire to not have to spend my break worrying about food, about finding a way to fit in with everyone else."

now on week 45 Sw and I wish I could sometimes do that too - but I just can't - hence the stroll round Bakewell in an attempt to find something free from saturated fat and 'in plan' LOL
- I never liked pasties before SW!

LowRob said...

thanks for the tip about the warburtons bread - i so so miss white bread, especially for toast!
Lowri x

outlaw said...

I guess that the relationship with food one is something that will take years to resolve, not a few short months.

The best way is not to take all the options.. so ice cream or cake or hot chocolate with cream.

The thing to focus on this week is how good 17 something will feel. You've still lost an incredible 63.5 lbs, back on plan, back to the gym and once you are at goal (wherever that is) then a holiday is 2 lbs up from a size 12 which goes one week later, not 2 lbs up from a size 20 and depression.

I have great hopes!!! keep going and keep being an inspiration!