Sunday, 21 June 2009

Summer Solstice



So it's not going so well. After my last post, I had actually lost a pound, but then for whatever reason, I slid backwards, I can't even pretend I tried to stay on track, and I have had some horrible binges. I know when I've eaten badly because I'm woken from my sleep choking on stomach acid. This used to happen to me a lot, but hasn't been a problem since I started losing weight at Slimming World last year. This week it has happened, and I'm horrified.

I lay awake in bed this morning trying to sort things out in my head. And I've come to the conclusion that I am desperate to be able to get back to my SW class. I miss it. I miss Heather, I miss the support. I miss the food. When I look back, it worked so well for me for months, and when it stopped working so well, that was my own fault.

There's only a few more weeks now of me not being able to get to that class, so I am going to carry on with WW just for damage limitation, and then as soon as I can, I'm going to be back to SW. I know WW has worked so well for so many of you, but for whatever reason it messes with my head. I do think it was starting to reduce my appetite though, right before the binging! So if I can get it back under control then when I return to SW it will be with a smaller appetite and therefore a greater hope of success.

This week in June always seems to represent a turning point for me. I can think of many major changes in my life that have occured around the summer solstice. It is a year ago today since I did the Race For Life, and also a year ago this week since my first weight gain on SW. So I hereby vow that this will be a new turning point and a change for the better. I don't want to binge, I don't want to taste acid, I don't want to be fat, I don't want to die young, I don't want to feel out of breath walking down the road.

I will NOT press that red button!

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

I was beginning to wonder where you were,been checking every day!

I was just going to say go back to sw - I think you need to as soon as you can.

Don't press that button xxx
Struthie

rosiero said...

If SW worked for you, then go back to it. We each have our own individual way of dealing with any problem, be it slimming or whatever. Stick with what you know works and what makes you happiest. Lots of god luck wishes.

Jo Austin said...

Hi..

I've only just started following your blog a few weeks ago, and it's good that you have reposted.

It's encouraged me to blog about my weight, however it's a private blog for now.. I can't bear to think that other people would read it!

Well done you on this.. and what you've done so far. I've had a bad weekend too.. SW groupie here too,

love Jo

Lakeland Jo said...

I hope you will get back strongly on track. I started LL again today after a break- I have another three stone to lose, possibly four depending on how I feel after three.

Lisa said...

What is SW? I FEEL you on the binge thing. I am so off the wagon!

Wendy said...

Lisa SW is Slimming World, the diet plan I was following originally. I worked for me much better than Weight Watchers, didn't seem to mess my head up as much!

Thanks everyone for your comments, let me tell you it's knowing you guys are watching that keeps me coming back!

ou said...

Hi Wendy, I'm so glad you are back on track.

OK. enjoy the return to SW in a couple of weeks, but look at what you can take from WW to SW. that whole thing about not snacking on so much fruit (but a lot more veg) is really positive and will help. Also, remember to visualise losing weight and not get hung up on *it's allowed* *it's not allowed* etc.

well done x

Lisa said...

How are you doing?